© by Lori Gagnon, Nov, 2012 Winnipeg, MB

I am the studious competent worker
When did that happen?
I am the steadfast dependable one
When did that happen?
I am the one the one in the middle, the mediator
I have always been that!
Where is the one who is carefree, fun loving and spontaneous?
Where did she go? When was she lost?
I am the one conforming to the dress code
When did that happen?
I am the one breaking my back making a buck
When did that happen?
I am the one paying all the bills and keeping all the records
I have always been that!
Where is the girl whose stuff all fit in 2 suitcases and a couple of boxes?
Where did she go? When was she lost?

In my own mind, I am the gypsy girl who could move 3 times a year effortlessly. In my own mind, I still wear Indian cotton velvet tunics, thrift store 1950’s skirts and earth shoes, pink sunglasses and big wild jewelry hand made by some artisan. In my own mind, I am the one sitting on the sidewalk doing a chalk painting before walking in the park collecting fallen leaves for no other reason than they peak my fancy. I am wondering, where did she go and when was she lost?